At work

I am at work right now and I am not doing a whole lot of anything! I am just sitting at my desk going blind staring at the computer screen. I can't wait until this Thursday, I am going to take the day off and then I am also going to take next Monday off. Monday will be the real treat because that is the day that I go in to have my sonogram (really my second sonogram). I want them to tell me that it is a boy just like Aunt Doodle told me when she did the sonogram. If they say that it is a girl then I am going to be really pissed. Not because it will be a girl but because then I will be back to square one, with the is it a boy or is it a girl? I am also planning on visiting an old friend from high school. We weren't really close but close enough to be more than just "somebody I went to high school with." But she had a baby this past January, and she takes care of the two kids that her boyfriend already had. Those boys are 3 and 2, and her baby is now 6 months old. She thinks that she might be pregnant again... I think she is crazy... because she wants to have another baby. I don't understand why. I am scared to death for my one baby, and not sure that I am going to be able to provide all the attention that I would like to, and she wants four kids... all of them are either toddlers or babies. Not to mention they are all boys! Wild, unruly boys! I don't know how she thinks she can handle it. And her boyfriend is an abusive asshole! He calls her horrible names like bitch, cunt, piece of shit. He throws stuff at her, he never helps with the kids, and he's an alcoholic. Nice right? And she won't leave. I understand that she thinks she is worthless and that she will fall flat on her face, but she's not and she can't hide behind that when she has a baby to think of. I don't know what I would do if I were in the same situation so I guess that I really can't judge... I just wish that it was her on the outside looking in and then maybe she could see that she is going to become just an empty shell of a person.