I miss having a face... another one of those days,

I hate looking in the mirror and hating what I see. I swore that I would never be one of those pregnant ladies who just let themselves go... and here I am, I have let myself go. I was going to eat right and just resist temptation, and I was only going to gain 20 pounds... 30 at the most. Well now I have gained twice that amount. I remember complaining sooo much before about how fat I was, and how unattractive I was, now I can't wait for the baby to get here that way I can get back into my old jeans and look normal again. I know that it isn't going to be easy, but I am really determined. I know what you are thinking , "Why don't you stop eating cheeseburgers now if you are so determined?" The answer to that is, that I don't care right now. I am going to get fat anyways so I am going to enjoy it! Not to mention I am pregnant.. I feel like crap... eating is one of the few pleasures left in life and I am not going to take that away from me and baby! He loves the cheeseburgers too. I have also acquired a new friend or friends I should say, stretch marks. UGhhh, I was not supposed to get them.. my mom didn't have them, my grandma didn't have them... so why do I have them??? Stupid ugly stretch marks :'(

I also have acne like never before, I don't think that my skin has ever looked this bad, and acne isn't the right word, it is like a rash all around my mouth and nose, dry, red, itchy skin! I can't get it to go away no matter what I use. I am hoping that it is just hormonal... it will go away... please God let it go away. My hair is not long and shiny and pretty, it is like frizzy straw and doesn't cooperate with me at all. I am pale, my nails aren't growing... DID I GET ANY OF THE PERKS OF BEING PREGNANT! I don't think so. I think I got everything. I am just waiting for the hemmoroids (sp?).

As much as I am whining trust me, I am still excited about the baby. 30 weeks down and 12 more to go... they are going to fly.